Nine of Swords
Minor Arcana · Air · Mars in Gemini
Upright
anxiety, 3am, dread, guilt
Sitting up in the dark with the mind running. The suffering here is real and is mostly anticipatory — this is the card of the fear, not the event.
Reversed
the worst passing, seeking help, facing the fear
The night is ending. The dread is being spoken aloud, which is where it begins to lose size.